can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline is where i'm gonna wait.

so today was the day that i have been dreading for what seems to be ages, the first day of year 12. i know that i shouldn't say it like this but this is actually kind of the beginning of my future. fuck up year 12 and i've basically fucked up my life. well kind of...

my day seemed to be really boring, bludgey shit. except for english, sir always has endless useful rambles. which i always seem to be trying so hard to keep my eyes open. So apart from english, i was bored, as per usual.

so as i got home from eating a nice dinner that consisted of steak, chips, salad and a coke. i had a shower and immediately sat down, turned my msn on and took out my books from today. i then started to do work that wasn't necessary. which is kind of amazing, cause i'm a bit of a lazy bitch, which will appear in my yearly results that are coming out soon.

i hope i can keep this up, i tend to go hard for a few weeks then go back to being a lazy fker. lets just hope for the best aye?

oh and as a side note, as i was at the cooks hill hotel eating my dinner, i came across some things:
the stereotypes of the typical aussie bloke going for a beer at the pub with his mates after work and playing billiards really does sadly exist.
- they are loud, really loud.
not that i have anything against them, i'm just saying :]

i'll be fine

i love today's weather, don't you?
i'll explain it for you, i guess.
the sky is blue, there are a few white thin clouds floating around.
the sun is shining brightly and there is a nice breeze which can turn into strong winds.
but fuck the wind, everything else is fine :D

i'm weird.

who'll stop the rain

i hate the rain, i think most of my friends know that. hate is a strong word, so lets just say i dislike the rain.
rain makes the day look gloomy and sad, makes me feel like staying in and lazing about like a fat couch potato. i'm more into running around and going out and feeling the sun against my skin.
but then again, thats just me.

the one thing that i like about rain, is how after the rain, when all the grey clouds have disappeared, and the sky is back to being blue and the sun is shining bright. is how fresh everything feels, but i only like this when everything is dry, like the road.
but you know, i'm just saying.

do you know what i'm trying to say? me neither, let me think of something to get out of this. hmm...
within everything, there will always be something good ;D - wise words from me, cwiz.
ok that was lame, i'm lame. you got a problem? fk off :)

 you know, some things in life aren't necessary... like you, yes your unnecessary.
go away now :)
wait, what are you still doing?
haha your silly, i think you should go now :)

where do i stand?

jump tonight

tell me that this is a joke, that all of this meant something. that it wasn't all fun and games, that there was something deeper. :)
i respect your choices and opinions, but ok really?
cut to the fucking chase.
maybe you have and im just indenial, maybe i am. fuck cares.

wanna know a secret?
sometimes im sorry i ever even met you and made all those silly decisions.

please. save. me. from. my. misery.