sweet disposition

sometimes i think, that im insignificant to you.
do you realise this? i do
i'm tom in this, and your summer. it makes sense.
but why do i keep running back?

i woke up one morning and i just knew 
knew what?
what i was never sure of, with you.

rest in peace

we take things for granted without knowing.
more importantly, we take life for granted.
one day they're here the next they're gone.
not that i knew them or anything, but i can feel the pain through my friend.
he lost 2 of his mates today.
a tragic accident that killed them instantly.
with things left unsaid, and feelings left unheard of.
family going through pain, close friends in misery.
everyone's affected.
what have i learnt?
to speak my mind, to say everything, to live life to its fullest.
cause by then, it might be to late.

rest in peace.

the rain

it's interesting how one persons mood can effect? the mood of others.
for instance, someones anger can provoke other people to become angry.
it's like the domino effect i guess.

gonna be a hot summer a hot hot

the day today is absolutely beautiful, 31 degrees celcius.
what more could you want,
if only i could go to the beach to enjoy this weather, or if i had a pool :(
i sadly woke up to some major cramps, so been awake since 8am.
o wellll

can you feel it in the air?

i got distracted and decide to look at all of the photos that have been taken of my family, and i came across an album filled with my parents pictures of them together.
and i have come to this;
my parents are the most cutest people ever, ever ever ever. i love them to bits.
like how cute is this photo :)
my mum is embracing the tree and looking towards the camera, happy faced.
and my dad is holding her and looking over at her.
it's love

part of the list

so flowers are pretty, they smell nice and all.
but freaking, do they have to have so much pollen?
i mean this hayfever is absolutely KILLING me. :(
fuck fuck fuck fuck
are just mere words to describe how i'm feeling right now.
you can vomit and i'd still feel worse than you.
you can shit in your pants and i'd still feel worse.
i just wanna cut my nose off LOL

i just wanna fly high away from here

Upon listening to my friends talk about such problems and issues, it made me think about my own. I've been too caught up and a fool for all of this. Worrying about other people and what not, to not even notice what i've gotten myself into. I'd like to think that i am a realist. From this i can say that, nothings gonna happen. Im a fool, a silly girl.
Is it possible that it's going to happen? No.
Then why do i keep holding on?
Sometimes i wish, for things to be different. That i never developed such an attraction. That i would be able to get over things quickly. That i'd never get myself into this situation.
But what am i God? I can't change time, i can't go back and erase all of the mistakes that i have made, or steer myself out of situations that i wish i had avoided.
The only thing i can do now is take this as experience and hope that i will never fall into a situation like this again, but maybe down the track i will.
For now, i can either keep fooling myself or go down the right track.
Some may call me a fool for going at it, but i've kept this for so long, i've hung onto something that will never be, and it kills me.

she moves in her own way

i cant be fucked studying, so much shit for chemistry. so much, right now it looks like a bunch of meaningless useless words. but we all know it's not :)
after school today; me, therealbeverly and gyndee went to kmart to buy some posted notes and random stationary. got to the checkout and i realised i didn't have my wallet so that was a complete waste of time bwhaha.
anyways, pics of monicas. cause we cool like that (H)