i just wanna fly high away from here

Upon listening to my friends talk about such problems and issues, it made me think about my own. I've been too caught up and a fool for all of this. Worrying about other people and what not, to not even notice what i've gotten myself into. I'd like to think that i am a realist. From this i can say that, nothings gonna happen. Im a fool, a silly girl.
Is it possible that it's going to happen? No.
Then why do i keep holding on?
Sometimes i wish, for things to be different. That i never developed such an attraction. That i would be able to get over things quickly. That i'd never get myself into this situation.
But what am i God? I can't change time, i can't go back and erase all of the mistakes that i have made, or steer myself out of situations that i wish i had avoided.
The only thing i can do now is take this as experience and hope that i will never fall into a situation like this again, but maybe down the track i will.
For now, i can either keep fooling myself or go down the right track.
Some may call me a fool for going at it, but i've kept this for so long, i've hung onto something that will never be, and it kills me.