can you meet me halfway, right at the borderline is where i'm gonna wait.

so today was the day that i have been dreading for what seems to be ages, the first day of year 12. i know that i shouldn't say it like this but this is actually kind of the beginning of my future. fuck up year 12 and i've basically fucked up my life. well kind of...

my day seemed to be really boring, bludgey shit. except for english, sir always has endless useful rambles. which i always seem to be trying so hard to keep my eyes open. So apart from english, i was bored, as per usual.

so as i got home from eating a nice dinner that consisted of steak, chips, salad and a coke. i had a shower and immediately sat down, turned my msn on and took out my books from today. i then started to do work that wasn't necessary. which is kind of amazing, cause i'm a bit of a lazy bitch, which will appear in my yearly results that are coming out soon.

i hope i can keep this up, i tend to go hard for a few weeks then go back to being a lazy fker. lets just hope for the best aye?

oh and as a side note, as i was at the cooks hill hotel eating my dinner, i came across some things:
the stereotypes of the typical aussie bloke going for a beer at the pub with his mates after work and playing billiards really does sadly exist.
- they are loud, really loud.
not that i have anything against them, i'm just saying :]

i'll be fine

i love today's weather, don't you?
i'll explain it for you, i guess.
the sky is blue, there are a few white thin clouds floating around.
the sun is shining brightly and there is a nice breeze which can turn into strong winds.
but fuck the wind, everything else is fine :D

i'm weird.

who'll stop the rain

i hate the rain, i think most of my friends know that. hate is a strong word, so lets just say i dislike the rain.
rain makes the day look gloomy and sad, makes me feel like staying in and lazing about like a fat couch potato. i'm more into running around and going out and feeling the sun against my skin.
but then again, thats just me.

the one thing that i like about rain, is how after the rain, when all the grey clouds have disappeared, and the sky is back to being blue and the sun is shining bright. is how fresh everything feels, but i only like this when everything is dry, like the road.
but you know, i'm just saying.

do you know what i'm trying to say? me neither, let me think of something to get out of this. hmm...
within everything, there will always be something good ;D - wise words from me, cwiz.
ok that was lame, i'm lame. you got a problem? fk off :)

 you know, some things in life aren't necessary... like you, yes your unnecessary.
go away now :)
wait, what are you still doing?
haha your silly, i think you should go now :)

where do i stand?

jump tonight

tell me that this is a joke, that all of this meant something. that it wasn't all fun and games, that there was something deeper. :)
i respect your choices and opinions, but ok really?
cut to the fucking chase.
maybe you have and im just indenial, maybe i am. fuck cares.

wanna know a secret?
sometimes im sorry i ever even met you and made all those silly decisions.

please. save. me. from. my. misery.

sweet disposition

sometimes i think, that im insignificant to you.
do you realise this? i do
i'm tom in this, and your summer. it makes sense.
but why do i keep running back?

i woke up one morning and i just knew 
knew what?
what i was never sure of, with you.

rest in peace

we take things for granted without knowing.
more importantly, we take life for granted.
one day they're here the next they're gone.
not that i knew them or anything, but i can feel the pain through my friend.
he lost 2 of his mates today.
a tragic accident that killed them instantly.
with things left unsaid, and feelings left unheard of.
family going through pain, close friends in misery.
everyone's affected.
what have i learnt?
to speak my mind, to say everything, to live life to its fullest.
cause by then, it might be to late.

rest in peace.

the rain

it's interesting how one persons mood can effect? the mood of others.
for instance, someones anger can provoke other people to become angry.
it's like the domino effect i guess.

gonna be a hot summer a hot hot

the day today is absolutely beautiful, 31 degrees celcius.
what more could you want,
if only i could go to the beach to enjoy this weather, or if i had a pool :(
i sadly woke up to some major cramps, so been awake since 8am.
o wellll

can you feel it in the air?

i got distracted and decide to look at all of the photos that have been taken of my family, and i came across an album filled with my parents pictures of them together.
and i have come to this;
my parents are the most cutest people ever, ever ever ever. i love them to bits.
like how cute is this photo :)
my mum is embracing the tree and looking towards the camera, happy faced.
and my dad is holding her and looking over at her.
it's love

part of the list

so flowers are pretty, they smell nice and all.
but freaking, do they have to have so much pollen?
i mean this hayfever is absolutely KILLING me. :(
fuck fuck fuck fuck
are just mere words to describe how i'm feeling right now.
you can vomit and i'd still feel worse than you.
you can shit in your pants and i'd still feel worse.
i just wanna cut my nose off LOL

i just wanna fly high away from here

Upon listening to my friends talk about such problems and issues, it made me think about my own. I've been too caught up and a fool for all of this. Worrying about other people and what not, to not even notice what i've gotten myself into. I'd like to think that i am a realist. From this i can say that, nothings gonna happen. Im a fool, a silly girl.
Is it possible that it's going to happen? No.
Then why do i keep holding on?
Sometimes i wish, for things to be different. That i never developed such an attraction. That i would be able to get over things quickly. That i'd never get myself into this situation.
But what am i God? I can't change time, i can't go back and erase all of the mistakes that i have made, or steer myself out of situations that i wish i had avoided.
The only thing i can do now is take this as experience and hope that i will never fall into a situation like this again, but maybe down the track i will.
For now, i can either keep fooling myself or go down the right track.
Some may call me a fool for going at it, but i've kept this for so long, i've hung onto something that will never be, and it kills me.

she moves in her own way

i cant be fucked studying, so much shit for chemistry. so much, right now it looks like a bunch of meaningless useless words. but we all know it's not :)
after school today; me, therealbeverly and gyndee went to kmart to buy some posted notes and random stationary. got to the checkout and i realised i didn't have my wallet so that was a complete waste of time bwhaha.
anyways, pics of monicas. cause we cool like that (H)

boy you fucked up for the last time

all the crazy shit i did tonight, gonna be the best memories

sometimes we do things that don't seem to matter at the time, we might miss calls, litter, hurt someone. we won't see how much it meant until later when the consequences hit us. regrets, mistakes and all. at the time we might be angry, or hurt, or just wanna start shit and we'll do things on impulse without thinking things through. don't ever be like this, try your best to think things through, i know, of course. my friends are people who are like these, not all of them, just a small handful. they are currently suffering the consequences...
maybe if i picked up those phone calls, if i didn't miss them. i could've stopped you.
your a silly boy, even though we never said it in any way, we knew we were. we were always there for each other.
if you told me i could've stopped you.
three years, three fucking years. we'll be 19 in three years.
alot of stuff will happen within that timeframe, you'll probably change for sure, i probably will. but i hope our friendship will last. i'll miss you.
hopefully i can visit you, every now and then, but for now. it'll be three years.
fingerscrossed.

betchess

man this shit is olddddd, havent been here in ages. 

totes gotta fix this shitttt later. when im bothered. 

good girls go bad

wait let me get this straight,
you have time to go with 'the girls'
but no time to go with me.
that makes so much sense (Y)

Knock you down

Am i silly, for believing in this?
Sillyboy.
xx

finallyyyy!

im finally fureaking sixteen
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
thankyou all for the messsages my lovelys!
<3
xx

climax

tomorrow, i finally turn 16.
woooh fucking yeah!
its my birthday
(8) BIRTHDAY SEX
- Girl you know I-I-I
4 HOURS AND 4 MINUTES TILL MY BDAY
Anyways, heres some pics of my fun filled weekend of parties :)

friends and whatnot

my birthday dinner is coming up soon,
me and christina were talking about who to invite, and we named all the people we wanted to invite. we then came to the conclusion that our school friends wont mix with our friends out of school.
the scenes that we come from are all too different, im scared that we all won't mix and instead of hanging around everyone at the party, i'll be hanging around 2 different groups.
one from school and one out of school.
oh well :D
i dont care bwhhaha
7 FKING DAYS TILL IM 16 BITCHES.

So desperately need

It's one thing to be sitting in an exam room completely nervous, but it's another to get some of your marks back and realised you oh so miserably failed.
And so what if you got 52%, even if its considered a pass, it's sad to know that you only passed by 2%, or a mark.
And while your sitting there, completely bummed and sad because of your mark, you turn around to see other people who have succeeded, they've passed by a mile, they have gotten what they wanted.
What do you do when they boast, what do you do when they say their mark out really loudly?
It only brings you down.
And what do you tell your parents? Your parents, who have wanted so much more from you, who set high expectations of you.
You can't do much, you can only sit there and beat yourself up mentally about how much you have failed, you've failed your standards.
Maybe its a wake up call, work harder.
Or maybe you tried your hardest and this is all you will ever acheive.
No one knows, but you.

And what?

Finally finished all of my exams, today is really really really cold.
Absolutely clear skies, sun shining brightly, but strong cold winds. :( kills the weather.
& it's only the 10th day of winter! damn

Happy birthday James!

A@$*&@*$&@$*@$&@#@^^

current status: STRESSING LIKE A MOFO!
i wanna cry.
fucking mathematics extension, fkingdie!

something that i want

Your too complicated, too much drama occurs from all of this, im getting second thoughts. Is all of this really worth it ?

Today is a public holiday, and i am sadly at home studying for my IPT exam tomorrow.
Currently sitting at my computer eating fried rice -sigh-
Oh how my life is so average.
http://www.mylifeisaverage.com/

You know h-h-h-ow we do itttt

Leighton Meester is SO HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT, her dress is absolutely unique and her makeup and hair is love, <3

Cam Gigandet is a sexy mofo! Yum boy. -drools-

let me be your body blanket

Today is a prettty day,
a cool breeze is slightly blowing, clear blue skies with an odd cloud here and there.
And the sun is shining its life out.
It's one of those days where the weather, reflects your mood.
I wanna go out again, todays just too pretty to take for granted.
I saw a guy at the supermarket, he was probably in his 20's.
He was wearing a warm sweater, striped pyjama pants and some warm short ugg boots.
Immediately i thought that he was cool, a non-comformist, doesn't care what people think.
Just cares about his level of comfyness while in his clothes.

(8) we don't need sheets let me be your body blanket, like adam & eve we gon' be completely naked

fsjhudjsfbsdfjbsdj

STRESSING OUT SO MUCH
BIOLOGY HALF YEARLY EXAM TOMORROW.
FUREAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKOUT
asda89skfdhsfjkdssjkfnsd!
one more topic to study..

mon- bio
tues- studies of religion
wed - chem
thurs - 2unit maths
fri- day off
mon- public holiday
tues- information process technology
wed - 3unit maths

GG

Symptoms of a heartache

bwhahahahhahaahaha
sillygirl.


moving along,
i love june, june is the best month everrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
it's filled with many events to keep my mind occupied for now :)
what to get my brother and mummy and grandma ?
and finally i will turn 16.

oh well
life goes on

Hypnotic tango

i hate this, i hate this very much.
:(

beach partyy

currently studying my little ass off.
sadface, but im distracted by "Talking about your generation"
8- - nerd emoticon
currently talking to matttyyyyyyyy
he's totes awesome.

this is dedicated to him, cause he follows my blog and my blog only, how cute. ;D
29 days till my 16th !

it's been a long time my dears.

oh damn diggity, it's been ages
oh how i've missed my dearest blog.
so much things have happened lately,
my parents have been gone for 3 weeks overseas.
I've been home alone with my older brother for 3 weeks, and they're coming home in 2 days.
Noo :(
so many events have happened, i dont know, just random shizzz.
anyway.
picccc update

summerrr lovin'

why hello strangers,
it's been a while, been busy and lazy ;D LOL
anyway, Saturday night was Dalena's , fun fun. :]
couple of photoooos

dnm time

Got this interesting quote of my friend Leon. Thought i'd share it.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect- you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together, but if she can make you laugh; cause you to think twice; and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day,but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."
- Bob Marley

nooooooo

Tomorrow is school, :(
How we've all been dreading this day for the past 2 weeks.
According to this horoscope thing my friend sent me.
I am:

Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic

And yes its true. LOL

f is for friends who do stuff together

To my beloved friend Matthew Nguyen, happy fureaking 18th birthday babe!
Your the greatest friend everrrrr, cutey.
Luckily i saw you today to give you a quick bday hug before i had to run off.
May all of your wishes come true, hope you had a great day.
May our friendship last foreverrrrr
xx
Love you matttyy~

feels like the raindrops are on my skin

Woke up today feeling better than yesterday, all because of this great weather we had.

The sun was shining, the sky was blue and a few white clouds were floating around.

The weather was perfect.

Went to Alicia's for her one week early bday party.

Had fun :)

Currently relaxing on the lounge with the laptop watching Independence Day on tv, LOL.

Pic of me and Charisseypoo

hmmm

horray, all boys are the same. diggheads and all.
sighzor :(

if it was me - sentury
nice song.

baby the questions you ask me are so crazy

Gosh

holidays,
you have been dear to me, now with only 3 days left of you. How i will miss you so.
I've been out alot, at least i've made the most of these holidays.

Oh how boys are confusing.

Yesterday was Amandas party @ mounties
buffet first, ftw.
then the arcade upstairs, fun & tiring.
Wish i had a pic of what i was wearing, loved it.
Anyway
this'll do, pic of me and Vinnie.

sometimes

i wish i knew what you think about

heres my key, philosophy; a freak like me just needs infinity

I spent my Friday morning moving all of my furniture out of my room, by my self.
Then cleaning my room, vacuuming etc.
What a fureaking mission, im tired as heck nowww.
Im getting ready to paint my room tomorrow, totes excited ;D

currently eating: pork roll
song: Infinity - Guru Josh Project
wearing: pyjamassss

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

current mood: happpyyyyyyyyyyy

woke up at 8am, stayed in bed for like 5 minutes. Got a text from special boy saying morning and that he's awake. Showered and got ready, caught the bus at 9.35am, got to the station at 10.15am, cause everyone as lagging on the bus. :(
He was waiting with my train ticket -smiles- caught train to Parra.
Watched FAST AND FURIOUS WOOOH, saw a friend.

And my my it is a good movieeee :]
I started typng about the movie, but then it's so spoiler LOL
anyway, i do kinda recommend it , i guess. if your into the whole driving scene like i am :]
hehehe im sooo -giggles- lol how wierd.

& Leon, i wore that like 2 days ago ! Not today ;P
today was more casual like , wooh.

okay im lazy now LOL

wonder if you know, how they live in tokyo

tomorrow.
fast and furious is out.
zomfg ;O
i swear, if the line is long, im gonna cry . LOLOLOL
Going with a special someone :]
hope it's a good movie !

Currently at tutor with jimmy . Haha

this post is done via my phone. hello 21st century!

You make my Dreams

It's Good Friday, a day where christians/catholics go to church and not eat meat products. Or a day where the rest of the world goes out to shop.
In my case, i go out to shop and eat.

In the land of Cabramatta (chinatown) every shop is open during such public holidays, why? cause they aren't usually of a christian religion. Therefore whoever else isn't going to church spends their day here as well, making the whole place crowded and packed.
Walking past 3 restaurants we wanted to eat at, cause they were all packed. So we went to another one and ate there.

ALOT of clothing stores are on sale now, cause it's easter or mid season sale.
THEREFORE CWIZZY BEING SUPER EXCITED.
I went to Loose Threads and tried on these HOT pair of Lee super skinnies, i then got super excited when i saw that they happened to ONLY be $70. Originally they were $140.
Half price? YES PLEASE :D
I shall post a pic up sooner or later:)
or maybe on soompi..

Behold Cwizwizz' return back to Soompi!
HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODYYY
xx
Be safe, Party hard!

na na diva is a female version of a hustlaaaa

it's finally here, schools out kids! time to enjoy the sun and the autumn breeeze through your hair.
today was soooooo high LOL.
me bev harshilly and jawad full laughing the whole way to the mall and on the buss. LOL
telling our stupid funny stories, hahahaa.
YAY FOR THE HOLIDAYSSS
too bad it's only 2 weeks :( sadface.
im saving money up so badlyyyy.
need to buy lots of things.

easter is hereee!
have a safe holiday and happy easter guys! :]
xx

rockin' that shit likeee

it's saturday and the weathers gloomy.
eww gloomy saturday.

happy birthday chin & van. ! (^)
im really bored right now, like overly bored.
there is nothing to do, i read an online story ive been reading and following for the past year or so, and now im bored.
i'll probably watch 'how i met your mother'

im supposed to be doing some maths homework, but once again im procrastinating.
:D

so whats on the agenda for gloomy saturday?
- van's 16th @ pho 76. cutelittleboy.
- david's 16th?

play pause rewind
like i always do - drew (of varsity)

countdowns:
approx 86 or something more days till my bday
approx 1 more month till my parents go on vacation
approx 5 more days till schools out ! WOOOH

wooooh

even though this weather sucks
im happy about my progress in school,
so are my parents.

this weather totes suck, grey clouds, heavy rain. random sun for a few minutes.
it sucks hard. BOO (N)

anyway
ive been reading Love Struck - Melanie La'Brooy
its pretty good.
i guess :]

i still want to renovate my room.

i'd do you like a truck

i have this thing now, i wanna renovate my room so badly.
its so ugly.
well its okay.
but im so povo now, i need a job.
how i miss having money just going into my bank
sadface.

on the brighter side :]
NO SCHOOL TOMORROWWW
teachers think that we should 'study' study my asssss
i'd rather have fun & go out ;)
WOOH

so im trying to save up money, for this whole room renovation of mine.
i have a feeling im going to fail. :]
LOL

party like a rockstar, party like a rockstar, fk like a pornstarr

Woooh funn night :]

me - white dress

best night everrrr

in maths me jono and jimmy were laughing at this funniest pick up line ever:

is your dad a tree? cause your a good root

HAHAHAHAHAH

trippy shit

MINHS WAS THE GREATEST EVERRR !
farkkk LOL

you'll never get to heaven if your scared of getting high

so i want a car,
i want to be able to drive.
public transport sucks sometimes.
i want a hot car :]
my dream car is a nissan 350z.
but for now, my dream car is honda integra type r, black exterior, red interior.
it's so HOT LOL
too bad im not that age yet , sadface, it'll just be lifts from a certain someone for now :]

MINHS PARTY TOMORROW.
will try to post pictures :}

rantrant

start rant

i dont know whats with today, but alot of my friends are like not in the mood/out of the mood/pissed/fuck it - that type.

and while there all fuck it mood and cut or some shit, im there trying to help them, i know when im wanted or when im not, so i give them some reassurance from whatever there suffering from.
being a good friend, i ask if they want to talk about it, i tell them that im there for them.
and then what do they do
no they dont give a shit that im that type of a person, they just continue being so arrogant and stubborn, they ignore my feelings and my kindness.
and they continue being AFKHD!#*&(&@.
One of my friends was even like no i wont feel better, yeah ? FUCK YOU at least i tried.

end rant /

equilibrium

I FAILED THAT DAMNED CHEMISTRY QUIZ.
Stupid "Novak quick quiz"
Go back to freaking scouting.
- me and bev's inside joke
LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

saddest lamest thing everrrr:
"Ive been noticing you, not noticing me"
- LOLOLOL

play pause rewind
equilibrium - jackie boyz
i love jackie boyz now :]

xx
cwizzz
needs a job, to spend more money :]

kablammooo

this topic in maths is fustrating me,
i know i am able to get it, but my teacher isn't explaining it properly.
how do you expect us to get it. sadface.

theres no pickupline :( i cbf thinking of one
LOL

i had sad realisations today..
sadface.

xx
cwizzy

what the familyyyy?

i hate it, i hate it.
why does it have to be so confusing?
sighzor.

i also hate it when people in relationships are like, im feeling down.
me: why?
them: cause im lonely
me: why?
them: cause i miss her, i wanna hold her now.
like what the family, can't you see that im single? LOL
and you're complaining about being lonely, try being single altogether
giggles.

anyway
pickuplineofthedayis;
"If i were you, i'd sex me"
- cwiz' smooth scale it rates: 8/10
i dont know why, but i've always LOLED at this line.
it's ultra smooth.

play pause rewind:
insomnia - craig david.
lovee itttt.

xx
cwizzz
lets try to be unconfused.

i am in love.

thanks to viviannnn
i am in love with Huu.
search him on youtube, his voice is absolute love. <3

moving on, i got a message today from Samara Morgan saying that i will die in seven days.
i shitted myself, then i got home and told a close friend of mine, he laughed and reassured me. As that message has been going around the school, and that was the reason why our assistant principal said over the p.a system that whoever is caught pretending to be someone else will get into serious shit.

My guess for this would be there is a number which you send numbers too, they would then send messages to that number that you have given, but that's just a guess.

Moving onnnnnn
pick up line of the day is:
"Baby you make my software turn into hardware"
- LOL, this is such a cocky line, oh my smoooooth scale it rates a 6
it's smoooth and cocky at the same time, damnnn.

i was at asian town today, and there were a few hotties here and there.
giggles much.

xx
cwizzz
hot boys are so oooooooft, damn baby

achievements are the best

i am so proud of myself, i like Bevie finally got Chemistry.
all thanks to bevie and joey :L
I love achieving things, i love the feeling at the end where you get to celebrate for a few moments by yourself.
like WOOH I FINALLY GOT IT -waves hands in air-
you catch my drift ;]

homework schedule for the weekend:
-maths
-chem
-bio
-english

damn, tomorrow is mardi gra festival in the city.
the day where gays and lesbians get to celebrate their sexuality with pride
woooooh!~

current pretty song : halo - beyonce.
it's pretty catchy, who knows why -shrugs-

the pick up line for today is;
"I've been noticing you, not noticing me"
- this just makes me LOL so much, it's a great way to make a fool of yourself. (Y)
on cwiz' smooth scale, this rates a 5. it's kinda smooooth.
i totes just made a smooth scale, damn genius LOL.

see ya later alligator(s)

day n' nite, the lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (wah wah) his all alone through the day n' nite (wah wah) the lonely loner seems to free his mind at night at at at night.

damnnn africaaa

songs really do change your mood, about an hour ago i was listening to the sadddest depressing nice sounding songs i own. And yes it did put me into a sad mood. However i then changed to dayn'nite the maddest song out, and then i started listening to more trance.
and then i became happy
LOLOLOL.

Soooo
pick up line of the dayyyy
"My phone's broken :( Cause it doesn't have your number ;]"
- this is way smoooooooooooooth, more smooth than the last one.
i tried it out today, people fall for it. LOL

whats cookin' goooood looking
xx
cwizzz
ooh laa laaaaa ~

stop procastinating, it's bad.

Im a major procastinator, which is why my room still looks like shit. I have a really bad habit of putting things off, then i never end up doing it.
I should stop, so i am trying not to procastinate as much anymore, kinda like cutting down on my procrastination.

School is gay as ever, none of us expected a change from year 10 to year 11 to be this massive. The work load is visibly larger, and thus tiring.
Our brains have to always be working, which is difficult for me. As i tend to drift off during lessons.

Moving off to a different subject.
Pick up line of the day is;
"I THINK MY HEART JUST LAGGED <3"
- it's totally rad and smooth, it's like sooooooo smooth.

toodles noodles.
xx
cwizzz
boys make me oooh

change always occurs

boys are sooo gay.
soo soo gay.
lame pick up lines are sooo mad, i wanna use them like one day and make a fool out of myself.
cause i can.

the one pickup line, i want to use so badly is.
"YOU ME NOW ;)"
- it's so like, out there. like so BOOM in your face kinda thing.
& soooooooooooooo funny. LOL

xx
cwizzzz..
IS IN YOUR PANTS ;O
p.s im doing a pickup line a day :]
omg cwiz, greatest idea everrrrrrrrrrr.

coupleeees love

my friends are going into couple mode,

people are coupling up. leaving us singles to gather together and feel for each other.

how sad :L but then again, thats life.

our time will come soon :]

anyway, something occured recently to one of my friends, and i have to come to the conclusion that guys are total dickheads, well some are. so that is why you have to choose carefully.

speaking about guys.

JAMES is the most stonest boy out.

he makes me LOLAGE so hard that i am able to piss my pants.

he did this pose, for me on saturday night when i was SO BORED.

to me it's hilarious, cause his such a junky stoner
LAUGH OUT LOUDNESSSSSS.

Anyway some more venting,
you obviously like him, stop trying to divert your mind elsewhere, stop trying to deny it. We can all see past that, it's not like we were born without knowing.

xx
cwiz.
im so uncomplicated right?

asianssss

you know your asian when your at a restaurant and your relatives fight over who's paying for the meal.
you then sit there in embarrassment, as they cause a little commotion.
LOL

LMFAOOO double post

rozie lovescwiz; lame wifey. says:
YOU ASSHOEL
(R) cwizzz lovesrozie;stupid manwhore says:
AHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA
(R) cwizzz lovesrozie;stupid manwhore says:
AHAHAHHAh

i like it when you smilee

- //p ℮ т e r says:
heys there
(R) cwizzz says:
heyy
- //p ℮ т e r says:
can i get
- //p ℮ т e r says:
a double bondi burger meal
(R) cwizzz says:
no

LOOOL
just had to post that, it made me LOL.
also this made me LOL.

(R) cwizzz says:
5 nguyens in year 11
- <-•·.·´¯`·.·©][§2-хÐ][©·.·´¯`·.·•-> ™ says:
same lol
- <-•·.·´¯`·.·©][§2-хÐ][©·.·´¯`·.·•-> ™ says:
i gotta meet them
- <-•·.·´¯`·.·©][§2-хÐ][©·.·´¯`·.·•-> ™ says:
we could make liek a clan or some shiet
- <-•·.·´¯`·.·©][§2-хÐ][©·.·´¯`·.·•-> ™ says:
and do viet stuff

a clan? damn you must be a hard out gamer.
tomorrow is biology excursion,
it's a MAD shame that bev won't be with us, :(:(
all well, i'll be sure to post up pics :]

no rants so far.

btw, christinas party was mad (H)

xx

smileeeeee

Today was pretttty cool, in chem bev drew cute pigs on my book and i drew rad cows on hers. So we're all even.

I had to vent about something, i mean we've all kept it in for a while but we thought this was the perfect time to vent, so we did.

Like i know, i understand if you're antisocial, i have no issues with people who are antisocial.

But to be antisocial, know that you are antisocial, then complain and groan about it isn't going to help anyone.

Or, when i go and socialise, complain how i left you alone.

Life is pretty difficult, i know, but not trying to come out of your comfort zone just makes it a whole lot more harder.

Anywayyyyyyyyy

Family and familyfriends came over this evening to eat for my great grandpa who passed away, i dont know what this is called in English , but yes.

My cuteeeeeeeeee baby cousin Jessica <3

she likes to smile when i tell her to.

Hehe

Todayyyyy is Christinas birthday party.

HORRRAYYYYYYYY

Loveeeee you

xx

watching the city sleep, dreams are shining

if only you knew, if only you knew how stupid i feel.
if only

Please understand me, should i wait?

Anyway, to the followers.
http://www.iminlikewithyou.com
is the bestest game site out, it's so freaking addictive.
i swear, you will get addicted to it.
and when you do, CHALLENGE ME.
i shall pwn you.

xx

Shades of Red

Februrary the 14th, we all know what this day is.
It's Valentines day,
a day to show your love to your significant other,
a day to bring out the true romantic inside of you.

Sadly, i have no significant other, that i can think of.
It's raining outside :(

friday the fucking 13th.

just when i thought things were at it's worse.

you passed away.

you were 96 .. you lived your life.

great grandpa, why?

i miss you.

i miss you telling me about your teenage years, everytime you saw me. because you had amnesia and would forget. then tell me the same story again.

i miss you taking our your photos from when you were in the army.

i miss you making jokes.

im sorry for living so far away.

im sorry i never said goodbye.

r.i.p great grandpa. 13th February 2009.

I'll love you always.

fuck.

today was fucked.
im sorry for using profanity, i dont care.
im sorry for what i did,
im sorry.
can't we just erase what had happened?
or rewind time and prevented that from happening.
im sorry,
i feel so guilty.
it's all my fucking fault.
im sorry im such a fucking bitch.
and your putting all the blame on you, what if you get into heaps of shit.
what happens then?
what if they press charges?
what if you get expelled?
im so fucking uselesss.
all i can do now is cry.

cold nights cold days

it's supposed to me summer, supposed to be sunny. supposed to be hot, supposed to have clear blue skies. supposed to make us all feel warm.
but no, it is the opposite.
it's not sunny, it's not hot, it's cold. the sky is filled with dull grey rain clouds, and it rains every now and then.
freaking weather, last week you were boiling hot and now it's freaking cold.

& i hate school.
and it's endless amount of homework

but i love getting roses. :]
valentines day is in 2 days, how sad for singles.

and im craving a 6 nugget pack from maccas with honey mustard sauce, yes please.

Dont stop till the party stops.

It's beeeen a while, school has been work, work and more work!

The weather here in Sydney has been crazy over the past week, the temperatures have been high, around about 35 degrees celcius or more.

Saturday was about 42 degrees celcius, and sunday about 45 degrees celcius.

It's been a major sweat fest for australia.

I'm sure most of you know that it was Chinese New Year/ Lunar Year about a few weeks back.

Well every year in Sydney, Australia, we have something called "Vietnamese New Year Festival" It is known as "Warwick" for most teeeeeeeen asians, like myself. It's known as Warwick because it is usually helf in Warwick farm, this year however. It was held in Farfield Showgrounds.

I arrived that at 8pm and hugged my dearest kimmy who i have not seen since last year. We then caught up on all the news and gossip we have missed out, and soon saw our friends/group that we were staying with.

The night was filled with laughter and fun.

It was humid, and dusty.

But you know, who cares? You are having fun.

Wellllll here are some picturesss.

Awwwwkay

The first week of school is over, we made it past this point.
The subjects i chose are alright, i have quite a bit of homework though.

Bio teacher is pretty nice, and has a habit of saying awwkay at the end of every sentence or so.
Chem teacher is ..... i don't know what his trying to tell me.
Maths, i don't like her, she was trying to put us all down. Saying that this class "extension maths/3 unit maths" is very difficult and laborious. That we have 23 in the class, but by the end of a few weeks we will only have like half left. That we will get homework everynight, i hate it :(
Religion is mad, the teacher is nice, and all of the Nguyen's are in one class.
IPT, shoot me, my teacher is totally zzz.
English is alright, i don't know if i can survive in english advanced though.

Well i'm nerding it out now, i'm trying to commit myself to do homework as soon as i get it, but this however is difficult. I tend to be lazy and procrastinate, then i'll complain that i have absolutely nothing to do and that i am very bored, and i complain even if i have homework.
sighzorz.

BOWLING TONIGHT!

Sleepless Wednesdays

today was the first day of my junior year or year 11. it wasn't school work, more of an orientation day or induction. the school claims that it's "high tech" but on this day that was around 30 degrees or higher, we were all sweating like pigs! cause they don't have air conditioning, right so you have computers and laptops for every year 12 student but no air con?! T_T

:( how i hate school
i woke up late today, and slept late.

the fact that most of us came from all saints boys (same sex school) and all saints girls (same sex school) is kind of wierd, we all come to school and are each seperated sitting with our own same sex groups. Most of us haven't been in a co-ed school for 4 years.

we'll all mix soon enough. :]

it's tomorrow

school is tomorrow. :( the day that i've been dreading for the past two months.
boo to early morning wakeups and getting ready to go to school.
how sad ;[

Feeling Ecstatic

I was supposed to write this yesterday, but i got lazy and i was too happy to contain myself and write down a few words. It was the last day of work and hard labour at that place i used to work; Oporto. Oh how i don't miss you my dear workplace, although i miss my fellow co-workers, they were all so cute and nice.



Any person who has experienced work at such a place, would have felt the same way as me, so fking happy to be free from that dreaded place. I spent my day serving people with a happy smile, i got many thankyous and have a nice days. I am so awesome. :D

I was so excited that i even cleaned like half of that place up, cause i was sooo happy to finally be released from there after 3.5 months of hard labour. No more early wake ups on Saturday mornings just to go to work! I can finally relax and sleep-in. Hopefully. :]

Here's a picture of some of my fellow co-workers and my manager.

Yes i had to wear that uniform T_T I decided not to be in that photo, well because i was the one who took it. :] LOL

YEAH I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY.
Now all i have to do is find a better job and focus on my studies.
Speaking of studies..

School is in approximately 3 days. 3 FREAKING DAYS. I'm rather excited to see all of my friends again, spend time, catch up on all the talk. But not so excited to be starting year 11, in approximately 8 or so months i will be in year 12. Freaking year 12! Ahhhh my life is nearly officially beginning soon. -sigh-

And i'm still a lonely romantic.

xx cwiz.

late nights and early mornings

It's 12pm, approximately 4.5 hours until i am at work, standing there, greeting customers and serving them. How i dread work. After yesterdays work meeting, i know that today will be full of hard work and what not, i will possibly be told many times to clean something. I am pretty happy to know that this is my 2nd last shift before i don't have any more shifts at the place.

There is this really cute guy at Boost fruit juice bar and i've been wondering for a few weeks who he is, how old he is and if he's taken by any chance. So i asked my friend who works there and he said that he's 22 years old and he's in his 2nd year at University Technology of Sydney. I gawked when i heard this, the cute guy that i have been eyeing is 22 years old. Who would've thought that he was 7 years older than myself.

This evolved into a discussion with a friend of mine, i asked him:
"Would you accept a relationship between a 15 year old girl and a 22 year old guy?"
He's answer? No, court dismissed.
My friend believes that due to the age difference we will run out of things to say and we will have different interests. This is somewhat kind of true, but not necessarily. Society is rather i don't know the word so i will just say biased in a way. Society accepts a relationship between a 80 year old woman and a 40 year old man, but not a relationship between a 15 year old girl and a 22 year old guy. Why is this?
Well you might say that it is simply because the girl is at a young age, so what if she is? You don't know that she might be mature to know all the consequences of going into such a relationship.
I'm just saying you know, xD

The weather in Sydney for the past couple of days have been hectik. On Tuesday it was really hot and then at night it was raining. On Wednesday it was hot and then a thunderstorm appeared. Today is Thursday, it is quite warm but with high winds.

School is returning in about 6 days, i am rather scared. Let the countdown begin.

xx cwiz

i wish i had a whole bunch of money so that i could continuously spend it on matieralistic items

Today is wednesday, yes wednesday. I woke up to the sound of something vibrating, it was my phone. So i woke up at 11am thinking to myself, why did i put an alarm on? Is there something special going on today? After 10 minutes of pondering to myself, it hit me, i was supposed to go out with Charisse, her sister Kate and Kate's boyfriend George. With limited time left, we were supposed to leave at 12, i started running around like a crazy woman getting ready.

My mission today? Buy a freaking "black bag" for school. We went around looking for my special black bag, there were heaps and HEAPS of black bags, but my problem was that i was too picky. I myself knew that i was picky, i wanted a funky bag. A funky black school bag. The problem with this? It was somehow utterly impossible. After walking around aimlessly, i started to get irritated at this school i am going to attending in a week. Why? Because why does this stupid bag have to be black? Why does it have to be plain, no big logos and a backpack? Why? Is this going to affect my learning? NO. All most schools think about is their stupid "reputation" Stuff the reputation! Think of our learning geeeeeez.

Moving on :]
Today i bought things, yay i am happy.
I bought my nike black school bag and a pair of nice sunglasses.
Hehe.

I had a work meeting about 2 hours ago, it was pointless. The managers were just telling us how we have to clean alot, but they used a whole bunch of words and kept rearranging the sentences just to sound like they were rad. What they were really doing was wasting our time and talking about something a million times just so that it would be stuck in our brains to clean. Well, i don't care i only have 2 shifts left until im out of that place. Hooooray to that!

xx cwiz.

Tightass Tuesdayys

i have come to the conclusion that i hate working on tightass tuesdays, i hate working altogether, but i hate it even more on tuesday.
Hate is a strong word, and yes i'm going to use it in this situation because saying the word despise is putting it quite lightly.

Why do i call it Tightass Tuesdays?
Well my friend, it is simply because Tuesday is the day where the movie tickets are cheaper than any other day. A whole lot of teens go to watch movies on this day because they are tightasses. Yes i am a tightass. Hence it is called "tightass tuesday"

Why do i hate working on Tightass Tuesday?
It is because a whole bunch of my friends go to watch movies on this day, it is then that i am seen standing behind the counter at Oporto. It is then that they see me and point and wave with a huge grin on their face. It is then that i am embarrassed and shamed. I hate it when this happens.
It's actually worse when my friends scream out my name, making people look at me, and giving me unwanted attention. I dont want you to know my name.

I have recently become err, pissed? Because i found out that a friend of mine had deleted me off his msn list, i was browsing this website that allowed you to see who had deleted you off their msn list. And then i saw it, i saw his email and name. My face went from this :D to this D: .. Being Cwiz i decided to send and email that showed i was confused and angry.
I'll make another one up as i don't remmeber what it consisted of, it went something like this:

"Hey,

You deleted me off your msn list? lol.

why?"

.. yeah okay it isn't as effective as my original was.

Today he decided to add me back onto a new email? I was like LOLAGES he saw my email,
i was afk-ing as i was showering and he sent me some messages:

"Mm.. Well.. I guess you're sorta still angry at me.. Than, I guess I'll leave you alone.. Sorry for me deleting you, its okay if you dont answer, anyways Seeing that you're probably busy, hopefully you'll "forgive" me for deleting you off msn By the way, I can't go on soompi, so yeah.. Anyways, Sorry about it.. Bye~"

i literally LOLed at this, and i questioned him, why did he delete me? apparentely his girlfriend that bitch deleted people off his msn list and deleted his soompi account. what a bitch.

approximately one more week till school starts.. how dreadful. it's been 2 months since i've been to school, 2 freaking whole months. do you seriously think that my handwriting is nice anymore? i don't know how i am going to wake up early, i don't know how i'm going to cope being in my senior years.
sigh, sigh.

yeah i hate it when you jump to conclusions

So this is going to be a rant, because something just pissed me off to a point and i decided that i should of course, write about it. LOL
So i was sitting down at my computer in my study room being bored as per usual, and i was talking to a friend that lives in Vancouver, Canada.
The topic on MSN was "Boyfriends/Girlfriends" He is a guy and i am a girl :]
And we were talking about my most recent boyfriend, and i told him how my ex, was on holiday in Hong Kong and got accepted into a University/College over there. And that is why he still lives there.
This friend of mine, then says this.
"He was 3 years older than you? Ewww"
YEAH WELL STUFF YOU.
He wasn't 3 years older than me, he was 2.
My mood went from a high to a low.
I said "Yeah? Well 3 years is nothing, it's not gross"
And you know what he said? He said this:
"YES IT IS! Well i guess you Aussies like it like that"
Stfu, Don't jump to conclusions.
I am one out of the 22 million that live in Australia. So saying "you aussies" is basically saying that i am a major part of the Australian population and that the majority of us think that way.
Yeah? WELL YOU'RE WRONG.

You know what else pisses me off?
When im working, and i'm perfectly serving these people to the BEST of my ability. Because there is only one of me and there is a billion of them waiting in line to be served and to receive their order.
I'm smiling and greeting and saying my thankyous.
Then some lady, it usually is the ladies that do this, comes up to me and waits for a couple of minutes. She'll then look at her watch in a matter that shows me she's impatient and may be in a rush.
The lady is doing this to show how i'm being slow, but really i don't care. Then she might start stomping her foot in an impatient matter, learn to be patient.

Sometimes you'll get the lady that stares at you and gives you dirties,
then they'll look away, kinda raise their eyebrows and be like pffttt.
When they do this, i get angry.
Sometimes i feel like screaming out YEAH WELL WHY DONT YOU TRY SERVING A BILLION PEOPLE REALLY QUICKLY! But i never have the balls to do it.

I was working today, and i got this.
I replied with "Don't get pissed at me, does it look like i'm cooking the burgers and food? It's the people at the back, i am just merely serving and giving out orders"
She then eyed me the whole time, and i didn't say my thankyou to her. I just gave it to her and she snatched it out of my innocent hands. I then said "bitch" I hope she heard it.

laugh out loud at what i just wrote. LOL

A lonley romantic

Gossip Girl here, your one and only source into the scandelous lives of Manhattan's Elite.

Hahaha i wish.

After spending last night watching the newest episoides of Gossip Girl and 90210, i started to feel lonley.

Why?

Simply because in the episoides that i just watched, featured characters and people that were confessing each other's love. Seeing this made me realise that i want and possibly need someone to love me.

How tragic.

Moving on from that, while watching my favourite show Gossip Girl. And like every other time while i'm watching it, i started to envy Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester). In each episoide she is constantly wearing something that flatters her. Even if the piece of clothing isn't that nice, she happens to pull it off.

That is why i envy her, she's also really gorgeous.

How can someone possibly wear grey tights with some hot black heels and still look classy? How can she also wear leather gloves without looking over the top?
I'll tell you how,
cause she's hot. ;]

And then we come to Chuck Bass. The mysterious but hot devil.

How can someone with a combover still manage to look like that?

That's the question, and i don't know the answer.

But i love Chuck Bass, he has a certain aura around him. That fact that his British just adds to his handsomness. "Cause i'm Chuck Bass" *giggles like a wild child*

Today's even hotter than yesterday.

I'm sitting here and i still can't stand the heat.

It's possibly around 40 degrees celcius, or even higher.

I dont know how i'll survive standing at the bus stop waiting for my bus.

I dread going to work.

Hello Jello Fello

Thanks to my awesome gnarr friend Bev, i decided to make my own blog. Yeah howw original cwiz.

Wtf does this have to do with Sleepless Mondays? Nothing, absolutely nothing. Apart from the fact that i do sometimes hate mondays.
Monday means the beginning of a new week.
Monday means waking up early on school days, to go to school.
Monday means waking up and facing the world.
Monday, Sleepless Mondays
But hey, today is Wednesday and Wednesdays alright.

Today was hot, BOILING HOT

I walked 2 minutes away from my house and i was already sweating

TRAGIC ISNT IT, why yes it is my good friend. It's highly tragic.